Hello

Well hello again my precious blog. The home to all my deepest thoughts, feelings and expressions. When times get batpoop crazy and all else fails, you are my online oasis. I can't believe its been 10 years since I last posted because life has definitely gotten more BAT CRAP CRAZY since then. However, lately never have I felt so unaccomplished and hopeless about the future.

All Eyes on Me

Hello Blog

Its been a while since I blogged but today was just such a wierd day I just have to write about it. Oh and look at that first blog of the year *applause* dont judge me:/

So my day started off kinda slow, you know get up do my daily devotions, eat breakfast usually a bowl of cereal then lie in bed and then laptop. But then I got a surprising phone call from Langara telling me that my appeal for the Summer Semester was accepted, which totaly made my day! I guess they had to call since summer semester starts what....next week?? So I think I have one day to register, but its all good I look forward to receiving my U-pass in the mail, cuz I mean lets be real here thats the only good thing about school, am I right? say right! Right. Anyways moving on, I also had an appointment with an eye specialist to get rid of the calision on my eye lid or however the heck thats spelled. Since it was my first time seeing the doctor I didn't expect them to remove or perform any surgery on it, but that wasnt the case and he did! He said it would only take 7-6 min. so I agreed cuz I didnt want to have to go back for a second appointment. And so within seconds he proceeded with the surgery first adding anastesia on my eye. Like seriously those things don't work for me, cuz he had to put in at least 6-7 drops of those in my eye and I could still feel pain whenever he poked it with a needle, he said that was quite unusual since it should be completely numb by one or two. My body is extremely sensitive I guess as am I, so anastesia probably doesn't take away all the pain cuz I could feel stinging the whole time he was picking at my eye with the needle! I won't get in too much detail cuz some ppl probably have low tolerance for that kind of stuff. After the surgery he applied this cotton eye patch thing to cover my eye and sent me out the door. As soon as I walked out the clinic, I was already receiving stares, I wanted to convince my self it was cuz im hot and beautiful, but no, no it was dis eye bandage patch thing and I felt soo retarded I wanted to cry, not because of the sugery but the looks from ppl's faces! but yea after that i still went to metrotown to buy food and I kept getting looks so I bought a black eye patch and went home cuz its soo embarrasing plus being able to see with only one eye was wierd cuz I was starting lose my balance after the first hour and I kept bumping into ppl and things on my right side, since I didn't have right peripheral vision. Dang this blog has too many spelling mistakes, but deal with it cuz Im too lazy to edit! Figure it out! :)It was a minor surgery so I hope it will be alright. Luvs ya all take care God bless PEEEEEAAAAAYYYCCEE!!

Tired

Dear Blog

Im so sick and tired of feeling, and looking like a fool....

Running dry

Oh I know it gets hard so take it slow.....

Sweet Sixteen

JAN year of the single LADIES!! and the Single DUDIES!!

I have set many goals for me this year such as focusmore in school, work, friends, and families BUT MOST OF ALL to be HAPPY being SINGLE!!!!
YEAH!! last year I realized I was upset and depressed mainly because I kept expecting "today I will find my love" >>>>(sounds creepy I KNOW!!)
But can you blame me when I go to a school where everyone looks like they're off some modeling agency??and when most of your friends arein relationships? How can you not be tempted??

Thankfully during the holiday break I had a chance to think things through and appreciate the single LIFE.....the key is to focuz not on being with someone but appreciating those around you such as your friends and families and being completely in the moment with them so that your mind doesn't dwell into the "I need someone thoughts".

Plus when your single you don't have to be tied down and then when you and your significant other fight you're not worried about wether its gonna end in a bad way.

As a single dude I can dance randomly in public and make fool out of myself with freedom... peace and hollas GOD BLESS !!!

Summer Reflection

deep breath*

"Here I go"

One thing a person can realize
is how to be one's self.

Trying so hard to be someone else because you think it will make you better, popular, or cooler is a big "oh no you didn't girlfriend.!!"

In the end you just realize that you're not happy and even screw things up. Finding the path to ones true self is the Right path to travel on. After all it is your own road.

Another Reason to Love Langara

Already late for 11:30 class, a phone call...........then I end up skipping the class and studying in the cafeteria. Crazy world, absolutely crazy!!!! On the tables of the cafeteria were beautifully crafted paper white bowls. They were filled with wrapped candy. They were so colorful!!! Ofcourse I took some and to my realization these Jolly Rancher imitating devils were actually colorful neon condomns!!! YUM??!! Who would've thought?? Right there in the cafeteria where people like to eat not necessarily the best food on earth, were PACKS OF CONDOMNS!!! After that I dont think I can eat in the caf. again HISTORY MIGHT REPEAT ITSELF!!