Melancholyfever

All Eyes on Me

2011-04-28T16:14:00.000-07:00

Hello Blog

Its been a while since I blogged but today was just such a wierd day I just have to write about it. Oh and look at that first blog of the year *applause* dont judge me:/

So my day started off kinda slow, you know get up do my daily devotions, eat breakfast usually a bowl of cereal then lie in bed and then laptop. But then I got a surprising phone call from Langara telling me that my appeal for the Summer Semester was accepted, which totaly made my day! I guess they had to call since summer semester starts what....next week?? So I think I have one day to register, but its all good I look forward to receiving my U-pass in the mail, cuz I mean lets be real here thats the only good thing about school, am I right? say right! Right. Anyways moving on, I also had an appointment with an eye specialist to get rid of the calision on my eye lid or however the heck thats spelled. Since it was my first time seeing the doctor I didn't expect them to remove or perform any surgery on it, but that wasnt the case and he did! He said it would only take 7-6 min. so I agreed cuz I didnt want to have to go back for a second appointment. And so within seconds he proceeded with the surgery first adding anastesia on my eye. Like seriously those things don't work for me, cuz he had to put in at least 6-7 drops of those in my eye and I could still feel pain whenever he poked it with a needle, he said that was quite unusual since it should be completely numb by one or two. My body is extremely sensitive I guess as am I, so anastesia probably doesn't take away all the pain cuz I could feel stinging the whole time he was picking at my eye with the needle! I won't get in too much detail cuz some ppl probably have low tolerance for that kind of stuff. After the surgery he applied this cotton eye patch thing to cover my eye and sent me out the door. As soon as I walked out the clinic, I was already receiving stares, I wanted to convince my self it was cuz im hot and beautiful, but no, no it was dis eye bandage patch thing and I felt soo retarded I wanted to cry, not because of the sugery but the looks from ppl's faces! but yea after that i still went to metrotown to buy food and I kept getting looks so I bought a black eye patch and went home cuz its soo embarrasing plus being able to see with only one eye was wierd cuz I was starting lose my balance after the first hour and I kept bumping into ppl and things on my right side, since I didn't have right peripheral vision. Dang this blog has too many spelling mistakes, but deal with it cuz Im too lazy to edit! Figure it out! :)It was a minor surgery so I hope it will be alright. Luvs ya all take care God bless PEEEEEAAAAAYYYCCEE!!

Tired

2010-11-02T21:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Blog

Im so sick and tired of feeling, and looking like a fool....

Running dry

2010-06-27T00:29:00.002-07:00

Oh I know it gets hard so take it slow.....

Sweet Sixteen

2010-06-27T00:29:00.001-07:00

JAN year of the single LADIES!! and the Single DUDIES!!

2009-01-15T11:04:00.000-08:00

I have set many goals for me this year such as focusmore in school, work, friends, and families BUT MOST OF ALL to be HAPPY being SINGLE!!!!
YEAH!! last year I realized I was upset and depressed mainly because I kept expecting "today I will find my love" >>>>(sounds creepy I KNOW!!)
But can you blame me when I go to a school where everyone looks like they're off some modeling agency??and when most of your friends arein relationships? How can you not be tempted??

Thankfully during the holiday break I had a chance to think things through and appreciate the single LIFE.....the key is to focuz not on being with someone but appreciating those around you such as your friends and families and being completely in the moment with them so that your mind doesn't dwell into the "I need someone thoughts".

Plus when your single you don't have to be tied down and then when you and your significant other fight you're not worried about wether its gonna end in a bad way.

As a single dude I can dance randomly in public and make fool out of myself with freedom... peace and hollas GOD BLESS !!!

Summer Reflection

2008-05-23T15:56:00.000-07:00

deep breath*

"Here I go"

One thing a person can realize
is how to be one's self.

Trying so hard to be someone else because you think it will make you better, popular, or cooler is a big "oh no you didn't girlfriend.!!"

In the end you just realize that you're not happy and even screw things up. Finding the path to ones true self is the Right path to travel on. After all it is your own road.

Another Reason to Love Langara

2008-03-26T14:23:00.000-07:00

Already late for 11:30 class, a phone call...........then I end up skipping the class and studying in the cafeteria. Crazy world, absolutely crazy!!!! On the tables of the cafeteria were beautifully crafted paper white bowls. They were filled with wrapped candy. They were so colorful!!! Ofcourse I took some and to my realization these Jolly Rancher imitating devils were actually colorful neon condomns!!! YUM??!! Who would've thought?? Right there in the cafeteria where people like to eat not necessarily the best food on earth, were PACKS OF CONDOMNS!!! After that I dont think I can eat in the caf. again HISTORY MIGHT REPEAT ITSELF!!

IN THE MOOD FOR SHOE LOVIN

2007-10-25T19:49:00.000-07:00

Wed finally a day off work, and what a day it was. Unfortunately the level of excitement which that day underwent was merely a bliss of boredom. Not quite productive, but as the old saying goes you win some, you lose some. Hmm what an intricate and intellectual mind would come up with such a theorytical and logical outlook on life. To further expand on my day without work my day started off with me waking up, ..eating breakfast, ...finish breakfast, ....watch tv, .....exercise a bit, .......take a shower, ........................THEN BAM!!!! its twelve o'clock and half the day is almost over, so I rushed got dressed up and went to metro town, where I had to return an "element hoodies sweater" I literally bought the night before, which was not even in my posession for at least 24 hours. I thought to myself I need shoes and ONLY SHOES!! I stumbled across the NIKE store and thought they must have cheap and excellent quality shoes. I walked in to the store timid but confident, heading over to the wall of shoes. My eyes were drawn into this pair of white stunning angelical shoes which kept calling to me "buy me!" they were the perfect soulmate for my feet. Needless to say I bought it and it costs $***.00 *GASP*!!! I rarely buy such expesive purchases on one item, I just hope this time was worth it. Who knew shoes were so expensive?? I certainly and obviously didn't........so young, simple and naive :-? and that was a quarter of my day off work the rest is less exciting in text. Useless entertainment in this crazy world which keeps on spinning.

Life Lived Forgiven

2007-04-18T17:25:00.000-07:00

Well Well......... its been a long time since I blogged. WOw I've had this since september and only three posts!!!! That's pathetic well much has happened to me these last couple of months since I last wrote. But after all the highschool drama and family drama I am glad to still be alive and sane. I had a couple of breakdowns in class tears falling out of frustration. I mean I have Chem, Math and Bio dis semester you do the math cuz i certainly cannot. Math is my worst subject>> next to dat is Chem>> though i realized if I study its actually pretty easy, and then BIO my fave class its awesome cuz im getting an A. An actual A I havent had that since last year. PRAISE the Lord!!! GOD is so good. I realized that he is the only one who will always be true NO lies, NO eevil thoughts just pure RIGHTEOUSNESS!!! and he deserves every single second to millisecond praise!!! Well anyway dis world is just so polluted and clogged there is another world that would be worth eternity so there's just no use in getting atached to dis world when theres a world infinity times better. Im just happy that He revealed to me all this wisdom and thankful for the bokk "Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren and reccomend it to all those soul seeking who just can't find a purpose in life..... n e wayz GOd bless Everyone!! Im off to study!!!

WHEW!! Its almost over

2006-12-08T17:31:00.000-08:00

Dec 08, 2006

Oh man*inhales*........ hold on while I try to catch my breath! The past two weeks has just been rough. There was more drama, anxiety and pain more than ever compacted all at the same time!! I'm surprised at how I haven't ended up in the psychiatric institute yet. Thank YOU GOD for taking care of me. Ok so to start off my crazy week began with a misunderstanding to a fight with a really good friend of mine who i luv ofcourse (me encanta todos mis amigos). After about a week of not talking to each other we're getting along again yay! And then i had to get my wisdom teeth pulled out<<<>>> completely painfull. I asked everybody how it felt to get their wisdom teeth pulled out and they said it wasn't painful since they put this numbing thing in ur mouth. My experience was a little diff cuz it hurt like a hammer hitting your face full on. I guess the numbing thing just doesnt work for me. The surgery wasn't too bad it's what happened after the surgery that was worst. I kept drooling in my pillow the first night and constantly sptting. Then my face sweeled up and i looked like a lop sided chipmunk. I couldn't smile, laugh, talk, sing, eat.......... i couldnt do anything! I couldnt open my mouth at all!! I had to go through a week eating nothing but soup. I love soup but not after its all u eat. Plus I need real food. I was tempted to eat all the food my family was eating. While I was putting away the grocery my family picked the perfect week to buy all the good food( the week i couldnt eat)! Now dat a week has passed by affter my surgery da dentist took away da stitches which feels like reliefmy mouth feels free!! But I still cannot eat food quite yet and my mouth hasnt fully healed so da dentist says. I am so frustrated cuz i cannot open my mouth at all. It is soo frustrating!! I'm just gonna leave it to da Lords hands and he'll take care of me. Hasta la vista.

First Entry

2006-11-20T17:54:00.000-08:00

Nov 20, 2006
Well finally I have a blog. At first I didn't think there was any need for a blog or that they served any purpose until I saw one and was inspired to create my own. Who knew they could be so addicting.........its like drugs but not soo intoxicating. I mean u can write watever da holy u want and u can put pics, music......its like having a house but intangible and in da computer. Should I have a blog warming party>?? Wat's dat is dat a yess? yes?? ok party it is but u better bring me a present. VIP only!!! so dis isnt da first blog i've ever written in its actually da second yess sad i kno. I actually wrote in my sisters blog which is da first time i ever wrote ina blog. I will try to put what I wrote in her blog over here in my OWN blog. Ya so anyway today was unusually awkward... the first hald of my day was completely fine, everything was normal. Until after lunch when i started getting dizzy spiritually and physically for some unknown reason......every just seemed so out of place as if sumting was missing or gone wrong. Watever it is I pray it will be gone by 2morrow. An idea came to my head while at school...... I would like to go to Trinity Western University or UBC. OMG i have so much homework time is flying by so fast...... i cant hardly keep up homework is piling up and i keep eating french fries>>> and my fat is piling up too............shout out to Church's chikn(b-cuz my friends work there) it has become our new popular chillout place. I remember watching Save by the Bell as a child and saw them hangingout at dat restaurant.....wats it called??....oh ya da MAcs and would imagine myself i highschool eating at a restaurant with my friends>>>.and Now it has come true and I didnt even realize it now.>>> it wasnt a big dream of mine actually it wasnt a goal at all. It was a feeling dat im older and i'd have more freedom and maturity. well> peace out and God bless to me.